Where I got caught?

One day I sat thinking;
I thought to write about something
All the past memories were flashing;
But nothing seemed to be that astonishing

Beautiful nature was my first thought;
But alas! Here I will get caught
I have destroyed nature for years;
Still the beauty is left? Was my only fear

Great Almighty was my second thought;
But alas! Here I will get caught
It reminded me of the crimes I committed;
This idea was also abetted.

Society was my next thought;
But alas! Here I will get caught
For all the love & care; I have received,
Had I given anything when society was in need?

Oh God! Help me to survive;
Give me a chance to revive
Thought process is still going on;
I might find something to write on